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Posted by Faith Erin Hicks | January 4, 2013

Hey guys, long time no blog! Many apologies, hopefully I won’t let things slip like that again (and thanks to Prudence for taking up the blogging slack). I’ve been drawing two comics at the same time, the 2nd Bigfoot Boy book and The Last of Us: American Dreams, and this has been very time consuming as you might imagine. Plus there was Christmas, so had to go do the family thing and eat a million cookies. Yeah … “had to.” I miss those cookies.

So wow, it’s 2013! I had an amazing 2012, a year where a lot of things went wonderfully right for me. I drew comics like crazy (I drew about 255 pages of comics), Friends With Boys was published and had a wonderful response from readers and critics, and I had a great time at a bunch of comic book conventions. And I met Jeff Smith. ^_^ So yeah, pretty great year. And looking ahead to 2013, it’s already shaping up to be incredible. Did you know I’ll be a guest at San Diego Comic Con? Wild, huh? And the hardcopy of Nothing Can Possibly Go Wrong will be out! And The Last of Us: AD, and the hardcopy of The Adventures of Superhero Girl, and the 2nd Bigfoot Boy book. Crazy!

Looking back on 2012, I’m really surprised by everything that happened for me in comics. I’m constantly shocked and amazed that I work in comics, that people continue to want to read and support my work, so much that I find I just get overwhelmed by it all sometimes. Comics have been better to me than I ever imagined possible, and I’m so grateful …

… which brings us to today’s blogging topic, which was prompted by a question asked of me on Tumblr. I’ll just post it here:
discouragement

I totally went off on a ramble with this question, so I’m going to put everything behind a cut. Read on, faithful … um, readers!

 

 

Oh man! Would you believe I think this is the first time I’ve been asked this question? I get asked HOW you keep going with comics (answer: butt in chair, draw some comics), what gives you motivation and that sort of thing, but I don’t think anyone’s ever asked me about persevering in the face of discouragement. So I’m going to try to answer this question as best I can, because I think it’s really important.

So here’s an awful truth: if you pursue ANYTHING, be it comics, writing, movie-making, acting, piracy or clog dancing to a professional level, if you seek to make this one thing your life’s work, you will meet people along the way who will discourage you from making a thing you love into a thing you do well and a thing you (possibly) do for money. I’m not talking about Random Internet Idiots who like to hide behind anonymity and snipe at you that your comics suck, I’m talking about respected industry professionals, people whose opinions are worth your time, telling you that your work suuuuuuuuuuucks and you should probably reconsider your quest to become a professional artist.

I’ve had a lot of these kind of people, from college professors to beloved comic ambassadors to my peers tell me my work is not good. Some have said it kindly, probably meaning to challenge me to do better. Others have said it with anger or dismissively, meaning to hurt and, I guess, inform me that I am not wanted in this industry. Because I was not good enough in their eyes.

A fun story:
I went to an intensive 3 year animation college because I wanted very much to work in the animation industry. I loved drawing and comics and Disney movies, and thought that through school I would somehow find a niche in the arts industry. I just wanted to draw for a living, even though I was not yet very good at it. I knew I wasn’t a great artist, but after all, isn’t that why you go to school? To learn?

Animation college was rough. I busted my ass there. I was firmly in the middle of the pack, not a great artist by any means, but I worked hard, completed my assignments and tried to improve. I was also going through some personal crap, living at home while my parents’ marriage disintegrated and my dad up and vanished from our lives. The personal stuff made it hard to focus on college, but I tried my best.

At the very end of my 2nd year of school, in the span of a week, my dog died and my dad decided he wanted to be a part of our family again. I didn’t take it well, and punted my final 2nd year assignment, handing in an unfinished piece of crap animation because I couldn’t focus on anything. I’d begged for an extension on the project, but the professor refused to give me one, as it was the end of the semester and marks were due. It was the first and last assignment I ever blew in post-secondary school, but I’d done well enough for the rest of the year that I didn’t even fail that class.

A year later, I graduated. My animation college had kind of a nifty thing where you work on a short film your entire third year of school. It’s supposed to be about 2 minutes long, and you do everything on it, from story to backgrounds to animation. It’s tough, but I think it’s a great exercise, and I worked very hard on my film. It wasn’t great (I wasn’t a good animator, one of the reasons I no longer work in animation), but out of a graduating class of 60+ people only about a dozen completed their final year films, and I was one of them. For 8 months I worked on my film from 10 am to 4am in the morning, waking up every day to do it all again.

I was so proud when I was done. I’d survived this trial by fire school, I’d worked my ass off making it through, graduated, and surely, some studio would notice and hire me and I could start my life as a Professional Artist.

My college had an Industry Day, where studios would come to the school, look at the graduating students’ portfolios and films and cherry pick the top students. Everyone was warned straight up that no one was typically hired at Industry Day, it was just a way for us to make contacts, maybe get a few business cards, and talk to industry professionals.

In the meantime, my former 2nd year professor had started up his own studio in Toronto. He was a Highly Respected Industry Professional; he had worked at Pixar and had even worked on The Iron Giant, the greatest animated movie of all time. So he was there, looking at everyone’s portfolio, scouting the students he liked.

He came around the table and looked at my portfolio.

“Last time I saw you–” he said. I laughed uncomfortably, and cracked a stupid joke about the last time he’d seen me, I’d been crying because my dog had died, and that horrible final 2nd year assignment–

“Yeah,” he said, “I didn’t think you’d make it through.”

I didn’t respond, assuming he’d maybe say something about how I had made it to the end of college? or maybe that I’d finished my film? Something?

With a shrug, he flipped my portfolio closed, and walked off. I felt like I’d been punched in the face.

I spent the rest of the day talking to other industry professionals, trying to get anyone to take my sad little portfolio home with them, then went and sat in my car and bawled. And I thought, okay, screw it. This is it, I’m not going to make art my career. Just screw it. Respected Industry Professionals think that I’m not even good enough to graduate frigging art college, and y’know what? Maybe they’re right. I don’t belong in art, not as a professional. I’m not good enough. That guy told me so.

That was 2004. In 2012 Friends With Boys had a good review in the New York Times. In 2012 I met Jeff Smith and he knew of my work and thought it was good. In 2012 Naughty Dog picked me to draw the prequel to their upcoming game, The Last of Us. In 2012 I drew 255 pages of comics, and it was my job, my fulltime job and it was amazing.

It took me many years of slogging away at drawing, at internally telling all the people who discouraged me, okay, you think I suck at drawing, you think my comics suck? Well, I’ll show you. I’ll draw a million pages of comics and I’ll study all the people who are good at comics and I’ll draw every day and make comics for MYSELF, not for anyone else, and I’ll get GOOD at making comics. And I’ll show you.

And it took so many years and so many pages and pages of bad comics to reach a point where my comics were good enough to be professional comics, but … it was so, so worth it. It IS so worth it. I’m not saying I didn’t doubt — I did! — so, so deeply, I doubted my abilities and many many times came so close to quitting. But I kept drawing, because it was something I wanted to do for myself. Seriously, don’t ever do something because you think you’ll be praised for it. Do it because it’s something you want to do. And I wanted to make a living at art.

You will have plenty of discouragement when you try to become good at something, when you try to make it the thing you do well. My advice is not to dismiss the discouragement, but use it to fuel you. Someone tells you your comics suck? Prove them wrong. Draw a thousand comic pages for yourself. Do it because you love comics and you want to draw them, and always seek to improve, and then when you’re on the other side of that trial by fire, you will be better at comics (or writing or movie-making or acting or piracy or clog dancing) than you ever thought was possible.

So go prove them wrong. I believe in you.

PS. Please don’t take my job.

56 Comments

Thanks for this piece. I was feeling a little low and demotivated after pessimistic and negative remarks from Respected Professionals, but after reading this, after seeing you pull through and make it despite negativity from others, I think I’m feeling motivated again. I’ll prove them wrong!


AHHH! so inspired! I can’t believe you are doing art for one of the greatest video game companies out there. Congrats, the hard work (and pure, raw talent) paid off! Great comics too. Is there anywhere I can see your final year animation?


haha, no, the only copy of that animation I have is a VHS tape, so not easily shown. Plus I don’t really want anyone to see it. I’m proud of the work I put into the film and it was the best I could make it considering my skills at the time, but it’s old art, and thus is embarrassing. ;)


I always love your insightful posts about being an artist for a living. It always encourages me to keep trying to achieve my own dreams. You are truly inspirational!


Well written and well said....i think your work is some of the best....but who am i...a fan..... keep up the good no great work...


… That story wasn’t fun at all!

Thanks, though. I graduated from the Sheridan Illustration program in 2012 and admittedly I wasn’t the best student of my class. I’m at the point where I’m not sure whether I’ll make it as an artist, especially with the attrition rate of illustration students. Personally your story was really helpful.

An illustrator Victo Ngai said “It’s not the most talented people who make it, it’s the people who want it the most.”


I should’ve said it’s an Unfun Story. ;)

Y’know, I always got the impression at Sheridan that once we graduated we were supposed to be at the pinnacle of our artistic ability. Like Sheridan plucked these rough stones from the ground and polished them into shining diamonds. My experience has been that that is total crap. My art abilities now dwarf what I was capable of back when I was newly graduated, and there’s no reason why yours can’t advance in the same way. Just keep improving yourself and you’ll end up somewhere good. It may not be what you expected, it may be something completely different, and it may be something totally better.


Thank you for posting your story! I went to an animation school, too, and found out that my work wasn’t good enough for, well, anyone really =/ But I never put my pencil down even though I wanted to, so so badly. Your story gives me hope that one day I might find success and make a career out of it!


I’ve been doing comics for a long time, drew hundreds of pages, mostly webcomics and small magazines. I took a lot of inspiration out of your old Demonology comic, which I read a long time ago. Now I’m past art school with some experience with different kinds of art and am trying to get some of my stuff published. Inside I know that I’m probably about two or three years away from being good enough for that and the post you wrote makes me accept that and want to do my best to improve as fast as I can. Great post, great work, thank you!


This is such a great post- thank you. I kind of figured this out – that I need to slog through and make a thousand bad comic pages for ME – but I really need to hear this from people who have come out the other side once in a while. You are awesome! <3


Thank you so much for this! I’m feeling very discouraged right now (despite many recent small victories – such as winning a Xeric and another arts grant) because no one will pay me to do comics or illustration… Nevertheless, I must keep going, as must we all.


Hey there!
Kind of new to this, but it’s really nice to hear real accounts of art school and the industry that are more than ‘It’ll be fun!!’. At the moment, I haven’t even started art school and I’ve only just gotten into comics, but I feel that hearing stories like this is starting to prepare me (and many others!) well for the experience.


Thanks for this article, I almost cried reading it because everything you say is true, and I knew it for a long time. Unfortunately I am much older than you are, and I gave up long time ago the idea of drawing comics as a living as I thought I did not have what it took to. Now it is a bit too late for me, with life catching up and a messy financial situation, but I would say to all those reading this article: JUST TRY HARDER. The alternative, never doing something fulfilling, just kills you little by little.


I really needed this. I totally understand how you felt. Recently, I also graduated college and went through a similar experience. Now I am in the real world trying to get by. For the past 8 month I just gave up trying to get into the comic industry. Just drew for myself. Now, I am trying to get back in again once I realized I have to accept disappointment and move on. Keep going forward.

I’ve been reading your work since forever. I just don’t comment you a lot. Met you a few times a though. Your improvement and your success makes me very glad. I’ve been around since you were first published by SLG, so I m glad to watch your journey.

Congrats on all that you accomplished!


Aww, I am so glad you kept going. You make exactly the kind of stuff I want to read, you did so even before your actual art was so hot, please do not stop

And I dunno if it was the case with that guy, but some people just don’t seem to get how devastating it is when your pet dies. It really is like losing one of the family and of course it ‘s going to affect your work and study. (Yeah, my coworker was snotty with me for taking the day off after my dog died)


Thank you so much for writing this!! I don’t think many well thought of artists really write about their ‘failures’- and I think it really inspires and gives perspective on time and effort to young artists!!
this really inspired me. I’m doing OK at the moment, I have a few comics in the works for small publishers but even then I still feel very ‘unwanted’ ‘unknown’ (I definately am these things) even to people I am working for. I get real jitters and confidence issues at the moment. I fear I’m going to go backwards, and it’s not like I’m anything important right now in the first place- the last few months has got me struggling to see why I am doing comics.
For me, its not just this post you wrote; Every time I read any of your blogs about comics, to be honest, I end up really inspired- and realise how and why I love drawing so much. You just, write and give insight into everything I love about comics – although this post is more about the industry, It’s also totally inspiring me to keep going. There is hope yet. Thanks so much, wah :’) -runs off to draw furiously- ps. Sorry for pouring my heart out a bit…oops :S


Aw! Keep going! I felt the same as you for many years. Draw comics for yourself, always improve and even if you’re not rewarded financially, you will be rewarded in skill. Which may eventually pay out financially. ;)


Thank you so much for writing this. I think there’s something in my eye. As someone who’s had to fight for everything I’ve got, I really appreciate stories like yours as opposed to people who say “You don’t have to go to art school, just draw, that’s how I did it. You’re not drawing enough!!” Everyone’s journey is different and I don’t think people emphasize how much hard work and rejection you have to slog through to get anywhere…

I was linked to this on Twitter! I have to check out your work now <3


Amazing motivational story! :) I have found myself in a bit of a rut lately, where I’ve been TOLD what kind of art I am good at but it’s not quite the type of art I want to be doing. I fear that in animation it is really really easy to get pushed into a particular direction and get stuck there. :| I am trying to develop skills to lead me towards what I want on my own, but I grew up with perhaps an unnecessarily strong trust in authority figures and have a habit of taking teachers/professionals’ words as Word of God. Really inspirational to hear that you were able to overcome the naysayers and do your own thing!! :D


“…don’t ever do something because you’ll be praised for it. Do it because it’s something you want to do.”

I keep a few quotes in the front of the sketchbook I draw in daily. They are there to encourage me to keep drawing, now that I have picked up pencil & pen after 20 YEARS of not having the confidence in myself to do so. Yours is joining them.

Thank-you for sharing your experiences and encouraging not just those looking to work in the comic/animation industries, but anyone who aims to express themselves creatively. :)


I really feel for you and your portfolio experience.
I went to a crap for-profit “Visual Arts” college (didn’t know better) and attempted to focus on animation. For the graduation portfolio show I decided to finish an animation film a started in HS and in the final semester would work on it for 2-3 days straight with no sleep then sleep for a full day and repeat (THIS CAUSED ISSUES). But I finished it and I actually had something like 12 minutes of 2d and 3d in an interactive program (that would be done in 10 minutes in Flash nowadays)… in the middle of design and print show.
My non-animation instructors didn’t know what to make of me really but only lamented that I should have paid more attention to their classes but what I animated was nice but they didn’t know what to make of it.
The worst was a visitor who was in the design industry who had and interest in my work and knew about painted cel animation and wanted to talk about my work with it, was hustled away as fast as possible by an instructor I never had to the grouping of her pet students projects saying something about “going to look at actual graphic design work”. To his credit the guy stuck and asked a few more questions before getting hustled off.
I still try and find a proper (2D) animation class to get some learning and proper feedback even though it’s exceedingly unlikely I would work in the industry.


Thank you for this.

This may sound trivial (and ended up longer than intended), but I recently noticed my daughter who is 10 yrs old was spending a lot less time drawing. And I kept finding her old drawings that we treasure in the trash. This is a kid who has worked out a deal with her teacher where she’s allowed to be drawing on a sketch pad during lectures because it helps her think. She’s been making comics since she was able to draw and write, and it’s been her “what i want to do when I grow up” for years.

Last night (honestly just last night) I asked her why she didn’t seem to draw as much and she said it was because she thinks she is terrible. Every time she looks at an old drawing she hates it. Did someone say something to her, I asked. “It’s not JUST that,” she said, “I know I must not be meant for it. I mean I can’t even make a realistic looking dog. I want to just throw out everything I ever did.”

She wouldn’t go into detail on why she’d started thinking that or elaborate on who’d said what, but it was really kind of heartbreaking. I don’t want to be a parent that pressures a kid into doing things they’ve lost interest in, but this seemed like something different.

Your post struck a chord with me; I’ve given up things I could have been good at because of external criticism before etc etc etc.

I left it open on my machine, and when my daughter came home from school I asked her to read it and left the room. Heard a few giggles at the beginning and then silence. When she came out her the only thing she said was to ask why she knew the name Jeff Smith and when I told her he wrote Bone her eyes widened (she’s read the fat collection literally dozens of times).

Didn’t probe her any further on her reaction, but she’s now sitting in the living room on the couch, sketch pad and pencil in hand.

So even if that just lasts as long as this afternoon, thanks.


This was a very touching and inspirational. Thanks so much for sharing that with us. I’m also glad you stuck with comics.


Thank you. I’ve wanted to be a writer all my life (and I’m old). I thought I’d just stop thinking about it and give the dream up. But again, thank you, because you’ve inspired me to keep doing it. Take care, hope to meet you at an event some day.


Such an inspiring post, thank you for sharing all that. I’ve been drawing comics since I was about 6 years old and I want to make it my career. I’m gonna go draw now!! :D


You caught me in a very, very, VERY bad day and reading your thoughts made me cry and made me want to draw even more. This is great and now I will read your comic for the first time in my life and I know I will like it. Thanks for writting this.


aw! ?
tnx for the encouragement! why do some people, no matter how “succesful” they are, still feel the need to diminish others in order to feel superior?
anyway, bravo you!


Thank you for sharing your experiences.

My very first art professor in my first term of college all but told me to quit art at my midterm portfolio review (he told about half the class, and a lot of people promptly dropped out the next week). I stuck with the class (got a C, thanks buddy!) and eventually I earned my BFA, but sadly the discouragement hasn’t stopped there. I thankfully never had another professor like that, but once I graduated, the reaction from EVERYONE when I said I want looking for a design job was “Oh, that’s really hard.” Not “that’s really hard and I admire you for trying and wish you luck”, more a “that’s really hard and I don’t understand why are you even bothering”. I’ve definitely let it get to me more than I should, but it’s great to read stuff like this and be reminded that most artists are told at some point they’re “not good enough” and that the best thing to do with criticism and discouragement is turn it into motivation. And I agree, while receiving praise is great, it shouldn’t be central goal or expected result of doing anything.


Faith, so proud of you. Your tenacity to keep going through hard times is a true gift that you have used to inspire so many others. How precious to know how far you have come, how far we have all come… and looking forward to the wonders that will come for you in 2013.


What you just said above here has given me a lot to think about. I only just learned about your web comics and I have to say I love them! They are amazing. When I found super hero girl I literally read the entire thing in a single day. Your comics are some of the best out there and some of the most fun I have had reading comics. Thank you for sharing your story its helped inspire me to keep working towards achiving what I want in life.


Wow your posts give allot of insight to the industry and as a artist. As a kid I always had an interest in comics. I remember one time when I rented from the local library all of what they had of Calvin & Hobbes, Far side, and Garfield. I started drawing in middle school but gave up cause of people made fun of my artwork. Then after 2001 I had dropped out of school and My mom enrolled me in a home school program for high school two years later. I didn’t graduate in till 2007 and My social skills were not good at that time. Then in 2009 I went to Mid Michigan to do a Graphic Design course.
Just to make it short a lot of drama happened and I dropped out of College after one month. I gave up on art after that. I did nothing after that. It took at the beginning of 2012 to put motivation in what I wanted to do with myself. I had went up to North Dakota to get a job with my dad. He got a job as an oil hauler trucker. The environment up there was really bad. If you wanted to see the worst human beings could possibly be that was it. My Dad got fired from his job so we had to come back home after that. The funny thing was at that time a story or scenario was going through my head. An idea for a comic I just brushed it off as nonsense. After coming back home I loafed around doing nothing. That Idea kept nudging and then I started re looking at art. I came up with nothing but schools that had way too much I needed to do for art. Then when I had checked a kickstarter project update an artist had listed a school. It was the Kubert school. Since September I’ve been drawing (More like Doodling) to better myself. I’ve seen an improvement in my art but I still am not at a level where I can submit a portfolio. I know I have rambled on but the thing that been bothering me has been doubting myself. I gonna keep at my comic art and do the best that I can.

Thank you Faith.


“I’ve always found that if someone tells you you can’t do something it’s usually because they’re afraid you will.” – Senator Patty Murray


Oh my gosh, oh my gosh tears are pouring down my face! You are one of the sweetest people I have ever, ever read, haha. Ohmygosh. I can relate to this so hard (well not the success part–yet!) and have been trying my best to be my own inspiration like you did and this is so affirming and wonderful and you are just the absolute best.
You make me feel like I can do anything. You make me feel like someday I can stand proudly at your side as a comic artist!
No one could ever take your job, because you work so hard and with such bravery and honesty.
Thank you so so much for sharing this and your previous posts with us… so many people in your position are kind of mean and standoffish, particularly about comics… there’s this whole icky culture of like– suffering alone? It’s hard to describe! Anyway, thank you!! No words can say thank you enough!


So, how exciting is this. I bought “Friends with Boys” a few months ago and I loved it. I saw that Kate Beaton retweeted your post–I didn’t know you blogged. Exccittting.

I’m not an ilustrator, but an “aspiring” writer (like everyone else in college, amirightoramigright?) Currently sifting through rejection letters hoping that *someone* gives me a break. One of my rejection letters informed me that I was submission five thousand and something out of six thousand and something. So, on one hand, I can’t take it personally. On the other hand, JEBUSJEBUSJEBUS save me.

Thank you for writing this. I’ve been kind of doing the whole “maybe I really suck and will never get published” bit. Your blog post was a great reminder that I shouldn’t despair. Quitting was never an option, but depression definitely was! I’m still feeling a bit low, but it’s good to know that other people got through it. Gives me a bit of hope, y’know?


After a particularly discouraging couple of weeks (months?!) I really needed to read this. Thanks for the reminder to keep on telling stories, even when it feels like no one’s listening. <3


Cheers. :) I’m in a good place now, but I completely understand the frustrated feeling of getting nowhere in your field/no one reading your work. Not everyone gets the audience they deserve (I remain furious that Scooby Doo: Mystery Inc has not achieved Adventure Time level of success as it is SUCH A GOOD SHOW), but sometimes you can get … enough of an audience. Just keep going.


When I interviewed at Marvel back in the ’90s, the editor told me a story about other editors who would reject new talent outright on their first interviews just to see which would suck it up and try again. He related the story of the writer Frank Miller who kept getting rejected and believed in himself enough to learn to draw well enough to get signed on as an artist. You never know what is going through the mind of someone who is rejecting you. Every truly great artist goes through trials by fire, it is the trials which give us that inside us which drives us to create. At the interview I was given two things: a script for a Vision mini-story and the realization that I needed to step up my game in order to get to where I wanted to be. Ultimately, that realization was more valuable as an artist. Don’t ever give up just because someone says something negative. Remember, even “important people” are still just people.


While your experience and advice are best suited to the creative types (especially fellow illustrators), it seemed to parallel my experience at work and with fitness. I think that in any endeavor, there will be adversity. Working through this adversity takes courage, guts, and passion which you have in spades. Thanks for continuing to be an encouraging leader!


50 comments and everyone missed the “Wow, *so* glad you had faith in yourself!!” comment? :D

I’m curious as to how much you think, if any, of your discouragement at the hands of Respected Industry Professionals stemmed from sexism (overt, latent, implied or otherwise) and how much was honest critiquing of your work. Not to disparage the Respected Industry Professionals in question, just the ratio of female to male art students is wildly out of whack (or so I’ve heard, don’t have any data to back this up) in comparison to the ratio of female to male art professionals.

[if you don't want to poke at this hot button topic, I don't blame you. Just, you know, *curious*]


Hm, I dunno. All of the times I’ve been disparaged it has been by men in positions of authority (a male professor dismissing me at college, male animation directors telling me I am a horrible employee). I have actually never had a discouraging run in with a female artist in a position of authority, although I chalk that up to not many women older than me being in my field. Sometimes I think these people did speak to me in a way they might not have spoken to a male artist, but I can’t say for sure (one of the great problems with sexism is that it isn’t always overt). I have certainly experienced sexism in my various art-related professions, but in these particular instances, I am honestly not sure.


Best words of advice that I’ve read.
I’m actually glad that that person asked you that question because discouragement and demotivation is something that all artists go through on several occasions. Thank you for sharing your personal experience and your words spoke to me in ways that I can’t even comprehend. All I can say is that it was real. You spoke to me, to all artists on a realistic level because you were just like the rest of us at some point in our lives.
And its ironic, reading about your experience in animation school took me back to my experience at animation school too. I just graduated last year and believe you me, gurl I know the feeling. Animation school is tough as hell so if you manage to graduate, pat yourself on the back and just be thankful you survived.

I also think the most realistic part is what you said about what the industry professional said to you. I think it was one of those moments where people don’t know what to say so they just say something “out of timing” as the people in my country say and it usually comes off wrong and mean in a way. Personally as a professional, I think he shouldn’t have said something like that to you as a student especially since he knew of what you went through or at least had an idea.
But that’s just me.
Anyways before I bore you with my rambles, I just want to say, in a nutshell, thank you for writing this. At least I know now that if I ever get that discouraging feeling to reread your posts because it is truly inspirational. Thank you so much for telling your story and sharing your experiences. This just made me twice as motivated now to continue doing my craft because I’m an aspiring artist just like you (well were since you’re a published renowned cartoonist now which is awesome) and I draw comics too.
So once again, for the umpteenth time. Thank you very much and sorry for my long ramble XD